how does it feel?, 2009
wood, cement boards, spray paint, burlap, lights, 8 speakers
1000 cm × 450 cm × 1200 cm
man. | how you feeling? |
woman. | i’m feeling okay. |
m. | just okay? |
w. | yes, just okay. |
m. | no, honestly… what’s going on? |
w. | i just… |
m. | what? |
w. | nothing. |
m. | no, go ahead. you just…what? |
w. | nothing. really. not a thing. |
m. | all right. i’m just getting a vibe. |
w. | what? … what vibe? there’s not any vibe thing that i’m doing. |
m. | none? |
w. | at all! |
m. | okay. calm down. |
w. | i just feel… |
m. | you feel what? |
w. | i feel disgusting. |
m. | why? |
w. | because i’m a liar. |
m. | no, you’re not. |
w. | he writes to me and says he misses me. he calls me and says he loves me. and i reply, “i miss you too.” but i don’t. |
m. | maybe you don’t know what you feel. |
w. | i do know what i feel. i love you. maybe i love him too. but i definitely love you more. |
m. | he comes back tomorrow? |
w. | yes. |
m. | and you are going to pick him up at the airport? |
w. | yes. |
m. | what will you tell him? |
w. | what do you want me to tell him? |
m. | i don’t want to tell you what to do. |
w. | then tell me what you want. |
m. | that would be the same thing. |
w. | that would help me decide. |
m. | he loves you. |
w. | yes. |
m. | but you love me. |
w. | yes. |
m. | but you still love him too. |
w. | maybe. |
m. | maybe? |
w. | yes, maybe. |
m. | what do you want me to say? |
w. | i want you to tell me if there is a future for you and me. |
m. | a future? |
w. | yes, a future. |
m. | a future? |
w. | yes. |
m. | how can i answer that? |
w. | yes or no. |
m. | it’s not that simple. |
w. | yes it is. |
m. | sometimes things aren’t black and white. |
w. | and sometimes they are. |
m. | i can’t see the future. |
w. | you don’t need to see it if you know it’s there. |
m. | how? |
w. | how what? |
m. | how should i know? |
w. | we got romantic. |
m. | excuse me? |
w. | romantic! |
m. | romantic? |
w. | we are making out. |
m. | oh, romantic. |
w. | yes, romantic. |
m. | and what about him? |
w. | what about him? |
m. | what are you going to say to him? |
w. | “i’m sorry” i mean… i guess i could just say that to him “sorry,” right? just say it and be done with it. |
m. | sorry? |
w. | yes, sorry! … hey, that’s… it’s the past. right? that’s why they call it that, “the past,” because that’s what it is. past. |
m. | maybe. |
w. | don’t give me this maybe shit! |
m. | what?! |
w. | you heard me, asshole! |
m. | stop it! |
w. | sorry… i lost my head. |
m. | great… |
w. | you really push my button with this “maybe” thing. that’s why i yelled at you. |
m. | all right. |
w. | i’m not usually that way. you know that, right? i mean… |
m. | yes, i know that. |
w. | good. because i’m not. that is not me. |
m. | it’s okay. that’s fine. it’s fine to show how you feel. |
w. | is that true? |
m. | very true. |
w. | sure? |
m. | very sure. |
w. | what about you? |
m. | what about me? |
w. | how you feeling? |
m. | i’m felling okay. |
w. | just okay? |
m. | yes, just okay. |
w. | no, honestly… what’s going on? |
m. | i just… |
w. | what? |
m. | nothing. |
w. | no, go ahead. you just…what? |
m. | nothing. really. not a thing. |
w. | all right. i’m just getting a vibe. |
m. | what? … what vibe? there’s not any vibe thing that i’m doing. |
w. | none? |
m. | at all! |
w. | okay. calm down. |
m. | i just feel… |
w. | you feel what? |
m. | i feel disgusting. |
w. | why? |
m. | because i’m a liar. |
w. | no, you’re not. |
m. | she writes to me and says she misses me. she calls me and says she loves me. and i reply, “i miss you too.” but i don’t. |
w. | maybe you don’t know what you feel. |
m. | i do know what i feel. i love you. maybe i love her too. but i definitely love you more. |
w. | she comes back tomorrow? |
m. | yes. |
w. | and you are going to pick her up at the airport? |
m. | yes. |
w. | what will you tell her? |
m. | what do you want me to tell her? |
w. | i don’t want to tell you what to do. |
m. | then tell me what you want. |
w. | that would be the same thing. |
m. | that would help me decide. |
w. | she loves you. |
m. | yes. |
w. | but you love me. |
m. | yes. |
w. | but you still love her too? |
m. | maybe. |
w. | maybe? |
m. | yes, maybe. |
w. | what do you want me to say? |
m. | i want you to tell me if there is a future for you and me. |
w. | a future? |
m. | yes, a future. |
w. | a future? |
m. | yes. |
w. | how can i answer that? |
m. | yes or no. |
w. | it’s not that simple. |
m. | yes it is. |
w. | sometimes things aren’t black and white. |
m. | and sometimes they are. |
w. | i can’t see the future. |
m. | you don’t need to see it if you know it’s there. |
w. | how? |
m. | how what? |
w. | how should i know? |
m. | we got romantic. |
w. | excuse me? |
m. | romantic! |
w. | romantic? |
m. | we are making out. |
w. | oh romantic. |
m. | yes, romantic. |
w. | and what about her? |
m. | what about her? |
w. | what are you going to say to her? |
m. | “i’m sorry”, i mean… i guess i could just say that to her “sorry”, right? just say it and be done with it. |
w. | sorry? |
m. | yes, sorry! … hey, that’s… it’s the past. right? that’s why they call it that, “the past “, because that’s what it is. past. |
w. | maybe. |
m. | don’t give me this maybe shit. |
w. | what?! |
m. | you heard me, asshole. |
w. | stop it! |
m. | sorry… i lost my head. |
w. | great… |
m. | you really push my button with your maybe thing. that’s why i yelled at you. |
w. | all right. |
m. | i’m not usually that way. you know that, right? i mean… |
w. | yes, i know that. |
m. | good. because i’m not. that is not me. |
w. | it’s okay. that’s fine. it’s fine to show how you feel. |
m. | is that true? |
w. | very true. |
m. | sure? |
w. | very sure. |
m. | what about you? |
w. | what about me? |
m. | how you feeling? |
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