how does it feel? | UGO RONDINONE


how does it feel?, 2009

wood, cement boards, spray paint, burlap, lights, 8 speakers
1000 cm × 450 cm × 1200 cm

man.how you feeling?
woman.i’m feeling okay.
m.just okay?
w.yes, just okay.
m.no, honestly… what’s going on?
w.i just…
m.what?
w.nothing.
m.no, go ahead. you just…what?
w.nothing. really. not a thing.
m.all right. i’m just getting a vibe.
w.what? … what vibe? there’s not any vibe thing that i’m doing.
m.none?
w.at all!
m.okay. calm down.
w.i just feel…
m.you feel what?
w.i feel disgusting.
m.why?
w.because i’m a liar.
m.no, you’re not.
w.he writes to me and says he misses me. he calls me and says he loves me. and i reply, “i miss you too.” but i don’t.
m.maybe you don’t know what you feel.
w.i do know what i feel. i love you. maybe i love him too. but i definitely love you more.
m.he comes back tomorrow?
w.yes.
m.and you are going to pick him up at the airport?
w.yes.
m.what will you tell him?
w.what do you want me to tell him?
m.i don’t want to tell you what to do.
w.then tell me what you want.
m.that would be the same thing.
w.that would help me decide.
m.he loves you.
w.yes.
m.but you love me.
w.yes.
m.but you still love him too.
w.maybe.
m.maybe?
w.yes, maybe.
m.what do you want me to say?
w.i want you to tell me if there is a future for you and me.
m.a future?
w.yes, a future.
m.a future?
w.yes.
m.how can i answer that?
w.yes or no.
m.it’s not that simple.
w.yes it is.
m.sometimes things aren’t black and white.
w.and sometimes they are.
m.i can’t see the future.
w.you don’t need to see it if you know it’s there.
m.how?
w.how what?
m.how should i know?
w.we got romantic.
m.excuse me?
w.romantic!
m.romantic?
w.we are making out.
m.oh, romantic.
w.yes, romantic.
m.and what about him?
w.what about him?
m.what are you going to say to him?
w.“i’m sorry” i mean… i guess i could just say that to him “sorry,” right? just say it and be done with it.
m.sorry?
w.yes, sorry! … hey, that’s… it’s the past. right? that’s why they call it that, “the past,” because that’s what it is. past.
m.maybe.
w.don’t give me this maybe shit!
m.what?!
w.you heard me, asshole!
m.stop it!
w.sorry… i lost my head.
m.great…
w.you really push my button with this “maybe” thing. that’s why i yelled at you.
m.all right.
w.i’m not usually that way. you know that, right? i mean…
m.yes, i know that.
w.good. because i’m not. that is not me.
m.it’s okay. that’s fine. it’s fine to show how you feel.
w.is that true?
m.very true.
w.sure?
m.very sure.
w.what about you?
m.what about me?
w.how you feeling?
m.i’m felling okay.
w.just okay?
m.yes, just okay.
w.no, honestly… what’s going on?
m.i just…
w.what?
m.nothing.
w.no, go ahead. you just…what?
m.nothing. really. not a thing.
w.all right. i’m just getting a vibe.
m.what? … what vibe? there’s not any vibe thing that i’m doing.
w.none?
m.at all!
w.okay. calm down.
m.i just feel…
w.you feel what?
m.i feel disgusting.
w.why?
m.because i’m a liar.
w.no, you’re not.
m.she writes to me and says she misses me. she calls me and says she loves me. and i reply, “i miss you too.” but i don’t.
w.maybe you don’t know what you feel.
m.i do know what i feel. i love you. maybe i love her too. but i definitely love you more.
w.she comes back tomorrow?
m.yes.
w.and you are going to pick her up at the airport?
m.yes.
w.what will you tell her?
m.what do you want me to tell her?
w.i don’t want to tell you what to do.
m.then tell me what you want.
w.that would be the same thing.
m.that would help me decide.
w.she loves you.
m.yes.
w.but you love me.
m.yes.
w.but you still love her too?
m.maybe.
w.maybe?
m.yes, maybe.
w.what do you want me to say?
m.i want you to tell me if there is a future for you and me.
w.a future?
m.yes, a future.
w.a future?
m.yes.
w.how can i answer that?
m.yes or no.
w.it’s not that simple.
m.yes it is.
w.sometimes things aren’t black and white.
m.and sometimes they are.
w.i can’t see the future.
m.you don’t need to see it if you know it’s there.
w.how?
m.how what?
w.how should i know?
m.we got romantic.
w.excuse me?
m.romantic!
w.romantic?
m.we are making out.
w.oh romantic.
m.yes, romantic.
w.and what about her?
m.what about her?
w.what are you going to say to her?
m.“i’m sorry”, i mean… i guess i could just say that to her “sorry”, right? just say it and be done with it.
w.sorry?
m.yes, sorry! … hey, that’s… it’s the past. right? that’s why they call it that, “the past “, because that’s what it is. past.
w.maybe.
m.don’t give me this maybe shit.
w.what?!
m.you heard me, asshole.
w.stop it!
m.sorry… i lost my head.
w.great…
m.you really push my button with your maybe thing. that’s why i yelled at you.
w.all right.
m.i’m not usually that way. you know that, right? i mean…
w.yes, i know that.
m.good. because i’m not. that is not me.
w.it’s okay. that’s fine. it’s fine to show how you feel.
m.is that true?
w.very true.
m.sure?
w.very sure.
m.what about you?
w.what about me?
m.how you feeling?
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